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Submitted by clawrist 

One night, my circle of friends and I went out to go to an event we all have been looking forward to. Little did I know that they were embarrassed to be seen with me because I was fat. And though they weren’t telling me that I should fly solo, they were pretty much making me feel like shit until I actually go away on my own. It was about 4AM when they were walking in a fast pace on the way home. I was trying to catch up with them but they intended to leave me be; alone in the streets. I just felt like I was an animal trying to convince my owner that I will be better if he’d just take me with him. I felt myself being demeaned just for the whole fact that I was kept led on when they initially didn’t want me (at that time, at least) anymore.

I actually considered them my best friends, but I am not stupid enough to stay in a one-sided friendship where I am always the one who must be understanding at all costs, because somehow they see me being overweight as a handicap. So to me, our friendship was long over.

I had no problems with my weight before, because I could function well, and I am not a nuisance in this society. I’m not doing anything wrong. I was okay with it until the people I thought who accepted me for who I am actually are the same people in this world who detests people like me. And for months, I have beaten myself up. But then, I realized, if I was strong enough to end our friendship, why wasn’t I strong enough to let go of their judgments towards me? It is my outlook that matters. And if I feel good about myself, it shouldn’t matter if people around would beg to differ. Their problem with me when they see me is THEIR problem. I am a good person. Being fat shouldn’t be something that other people could condemn you for. Love yourselves, and I know there are still people out there more worthy for the friendship that you can all value in the long run.

Kisses.

Posted: Sun February 12th, 2012 at 11:26am
Notes: 12
  1. lesbianoutlaw said: salutes and hugs.
  2. buttercupsfrocks said: I’m so sorry you had to go through that experience. What a bunch of spineless little shits. I’m glad you removed yourself from their toxic orbit; you are well rid of them.
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  6. vegella said: Respect.
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